Monday, November 06, 2006

Big Mind

I have enrolled in a meditation workshop called "Big Mind". It's Monday evenings from Nov. 13-December 4 (or something like that) and is being run by another massage therapist and teacher in town, Alan Davidson (www.throughyourbody.com). I'm really looking forward to it, as I've been wanting to get "reconnected'' for awhile now. I had back surgery in August, and since then I have been feeling a little bit "off". A lot of stress, I guess, with school, exams, surgery, my full-time job, starting another business, and trying to keep up with the rest of daily life -- oh, and not to mention have a healthy relationship and a social life! It's all good stuff, but kind of overwhelming at times, too. I think I will enjoy having the time and space every Monday to work on integrating it all into my being. To "harmonize" everything, if you will. If I can get back into the healthy habit of meditating and going within, I know I will have the inner strength and balance to be able to handle more of what I want to do and what life throws at me.

I'm also considering going away for a weekend by myself to just write, meditate, pray, commune, stretch, and whatever else I feel like I need to do to bring the focus back to myself for a short while. As a massage therapist, I spend a lot of time helping my clients to focus on themselves, but I know that in order to do that honestly, I have to make sure that I also spend enough time keeping myself centered and balanced. I've been hit by a lot of moments of "synchronicity" lately that have been virtually screaming at me to pay attention to that, so that's what I'm trying to do. And I feel like maybe this workshop will be a good way to jump start things. I could probably use that. It's so easy to get complacent about these things. I do tend to want to play the hero and give, give, give. Then I wonder why suddenly I feel wrung out and used up. I need to get better about continually "refilling the well" as Julia Cameron (The Artist's Way) would say.

I'll report back about the workshop next week to say how it went. In the meantime, I guess I should get back to work....

3 comments:

susieqfa said...

hey - great blog. great idea too...seems like you have alot of cool things in your head and its good to write them down. it feels like those conversations we used to have at that grungy ranch 1 place on 7th ave and 28th st. altho now i'm sure you wouldn't be cought within 50 yards of such a place....!

Mitalee said...

Hey Joseph,

Great blog! I am glad you are doing this so I get a picture of what your life is like in Texas. Congrats on the massage therapy license! You sound very happy and look great!

I am still tired of NYC but it seems that my whole life is here. Earnings, voice teachers etc...

Just wanted to drop in a line.

Best to both you are Troy.

Love,
Mitalee

Mitalee said...

Hey Joseph,

This is my first response to a blog. So that is how it is done. Great to know how you are doing and how life is in Texas. Congrats on your massage therapy license.

I feel stuck in NYC with my job, voice teachers etc but finding ways to get out on the weekends. It seems that people seem to have money here without working...not all of course but just the ones that envy. I keep wondering what they do for a living. I've been here 18 years which is the same amount of time I spent in Pittsburgh my home time. All it probably means is that I am getting old.

Anyways you look and sound great.
Best to Troy and the cats.

Love,
Mitalee